Hey

I don't have much to write now, but wanted to have a new post as opposed to that news from the other day. I thank you all for your well wishes and we are fine. Just really sad this time around, i think this has been the hardest let down, this time. I was so optimistic and really thought it was going to work out for us this time. Anyway, if it is meant for us to be parents we will, I know that.

I feel I really need a break from this IVF stuff for awhile. But my the clock is ticking, thats the way I look at it. I am growing older each year and the longer I wait the older my eggs get right? LOL, we will try again, just not sure when. I expect sooner rather than later though, and of course you will know as soon as I do.

My friend will be here visiting next week, so I am looking forward to hanging out with her for a few days and of course she's bringing me some goodies from back home (USA) and I can't wait to get em. She was recently accepted into Law School so we'll have to celebrate that too!

Thanks again for all your wonderful comments I love you guys so much! Talk soon.

Not this time...

Beta was just 2.5 .

Beta #2 in progress

Did another test this morning, results will be ready at the usual 11:00pm. And yes i do physically go there to pick up report, i know its crazy, the times doctors/labs work here. They are 5 miunutes from my house so its all good.

Anyway, i am prepared for the worst, am hoping for the best, but "sort of ready" if the numbers didn't do their magic.

After 7 attempts at this the excitement level is dwindling. I still long and hope for that BFP with good numbers don't get me wrong, but i think after so many letdowns, maybe its just normal to be bummed but prepared at the same time to deal with it. I don't know?

So I don't sound like the normal, positive outlook Wishing4One do i? I still am, but I really wish that my numbers have at least doubled this time! Please God...

If not, don't fear we will hit this IVF b*tch again, take a month off, get a new RE and try again.

Thank you to all of you for your awesome comments, words of encouragement and prayers- you don't know how much they soothe me really, you all are awesome!

Don't Know

Beta came in at just 24.

Called my doctor and he told me, the references for pregnancy depend on the lab, i.e. this lab references pregnancies like this:

1 week: 5-50 mIU/ml
1-2 weeks: 50-500 mIU/ml
2-3 weeks: 100 - 5000 mIU/ml and on and on.

My numbers should be at least in the 1-2 week range I think. I am 13 days post transfer.

Anyway doctor said he has seen successful pregnancies at my stage with first beta from 7 - 25. Thanks Dr. K, i feel better. He means well really.

I am not giving up hope though, not quite yet.

I will retest on Saturday, Friday if the lab is open. ( Fridays here are like a weekend, some places are closed.)

Who knows huh?

Beta values

One of my favorite bloggers, good friend and mother to beautiful Lizzy, Fiddle1 over at It's Stork Season and I've Bagged My Limit sent me two of THE most valuable links regarding Beta values online.

These are definite bookmarks!

Beta Values Main Chart

and

Master Beta Break Down List (this one lists examples based on days past transfer)

Thanks a million Fiddle you are soooo awesome!

Its now 8:20PM here in Cairo, so just 2 hours and 40 minutes to go until I pick up my Beta results....

Beta in progress

Went to do blood test, beta will be ready at 11PM Cairo time.

Today is 13dp5dt. (13 days post 5 day blastocyst transfer)

Its now 3:20PM, its going to be a long day...

Isn't a lab a lab?

All labs are not alike... apparently not here in Cairo anyway.

So I go to a lab here where we live earlier, the test is a weak positive. Um, what does that mean?

She showed me the lines, one dark, one faint (she gave that thing above to take home, gee thanks). I thought these types of tests were used at home, not in labs? She said if she did the numbers (quantitative test) they would be low, that I should I come back in a week... yeah right lady, like I am waiting another week.

So I called Dr. K he told me to go to a specific lab in Cairo, latest technology and equipment and test again. Getting a quantitative (beta) test as well. We will do that tomorrow.

Dr. K also told me that I am pregnant. I told him I sure hope you are right man. He talked to Super S too, he's like a friend actually very very good man.

So I guess I will cautiously say I am maybe pregnant?

LOL, nothing here is ever easy. I guess I should not be surprised that I have to go through this just to see if I am indeed pregnant, I should be used to the ways of the Cairenes by now. ( I will never be used to some of them actually, i love it here but some things are insane sometimes) What a great story we will be able to tell our kid(s) about getting to know if they were even "there" huh?

Until tomorrow..... xoxoxoxoxox